Sunday, November 22, 2009

Open Letter on Obsession (response to the Anonymous)

Dear Anonymous, thank you for your time reading my blog and posting a lovely comment. Your opinion is highly appreciated (I am not being sarcastic). I will not descend to your level and will respond in kind to the personal attack in your comment (please read here). In this blog, we stick to the facts and let the readers judge and decide.

You mentioned that I am obsessed with my husband's ex-wife. I am glad you mentioned this very disturbing mental disorder so we can explore it together. I am sure you posses an incredible amount of knowledge on the subject, being able to diagnose me with insanity and obsession having never met me personally but merely reading my blog. I happen to have a degree in Psychology, but I am not your shrink and professional ethics does do allow me to do diagnose you or my husband's ex-wife in public.

Obsession is defined in medical dictionary as: A recurrent and persistent idea, thought, or impulse to carry out an act that the person realizes its senselessness and struggles to resist it, and that the person cannot voluntarily suppress.

Am I obsessed with my husband’s ex-wife? Well, according this definition, I am not. My blog is not about her, but about how my life is affected by her. And this is, my dear readers, is unfortunately the reality I live in, not an obsessive thought.

Let's discuss some strange behavioral patterns for a minute. 

Let's say, someone were to block your car in a parking lot so they could get a closer look at you, would that be considered obsessive?  Perhaps not. However, if that person were your spouse's ex, would THAT be obsessive behavior? 

Would be in this context, my attempt to learn about her be a senseless or irrational thought, caused by obsession? Or maybe I am just curious about how she manages on a daily basis, without having ANY certainty about the future, making same mistakes again and again without attempt to reconcile.

Twice already, she was under foreclosure on the house she lives in. She was bankrupt and owes money to everyone who is and used to be her friends, plus unpaid bills to her own lawyers and credit card companies. She takes, Tzedaka money, for G-d sake, and yet she is ready to go for another 10 years of legal battles. I wonder would she shot herself, knowing that the bullet exiting her body will kill her ex-husband? 

Would a sane person (until she is properly observed and diagnosed professionally I don’t have a right to claim her insanity despite the evidence) sabotage her own life in order to prove a point?

Now about me and my intentions. 

The opposite of obsession is passion. And I am very passionate person. I am passionate about my life, about my work, about my future, about an amazing person that I wake up next to every morning. 

I am passionate about living my life and about spending my time effectively, and this is the reason I feel pain every time I see a waste of time and energy.

The fact that I invest (waste?) even more time writing a blog about my life of war and peace does not qualify as obsession. It is my way to tell the world my side of the story and to bring awareness to the problem that affects hundreds of families.

Yes, you are right, dear Anonymous, there are many sides to this story, and somewhere is also the truth. Unfortunately, my side (the second wife's) is often the one, that nobody cares about. And let me be blunt here, I equally don’t care about his or her stories. I don't blindly believe what I hear from people (even if it is my own husband) until I learn the documented facts that either dismiss or prove what I have heard. In my blog I tell stories the way I see them, based upon documents I read, observations I made and experiences I had. If you find my story inaccurate, you are more than welcome to comment constructively instead of calling me names.

As I said in my first blog, hearing her story would cause anyone to cry rivers of tears. I used to have angry arguments with my husband while defending her and her side (silly me!). Reading the poisonous court papers where she degrades her ex-husband (a.k.a. a father of her children) and witnessing her twisting the truth the way she sees fit, was an eye opening experience for me.

There are no winners in any divorce. Furthermore, I believe that each side is equally guilty of making serious mistakes causing grief to all involved parties. The key message of my blog is that we better learn from mistakes of others, since life is too short to make them all ourselves.

And a personal message for you, my dear Anonymous: You don't become a failure when you make mistakes, but when you don't learn from them, blaming your unfortunate choices on others.

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